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Gratitute and Attitude.

A long time ago, I tried to sell Mary Kay. I know. I KNOW.

But, someone I trusted thought maybe I could do it, thought so enough to buy me a starter kit and mentor me in a very big way. It didn’t work out, needless to say, but I am still  very grateful that she cared enough to try.  Not only am I not the kind to talk to strangers or pester relatives to buy from me,(not to mention the god aspect of it all) but I really don’t even know how to work makeup, unless you’d like to fit in at a Marilyn Manson concert.

I digress again. The point is, along with my starter kit, came an inspirational gold pin inscribed with the phrase “Attitude is Everything”.

Even though the rest of the stuff is long, long gone, given away to others who had the selling abilities I clearly lack, I still keep that pin. Because, as cliched and self-help-ish as that phrase may sound, well, attitude is everything.

As you may be aware from clicking the links at the top of the page here, I have been through some shit. I have some baggage.  While all I have to do is click over to the news to see that I am by far, luckier than millions, I still suffer from being forced to deal with my own life.

I try very very hard to not let my past and my problems take over. I struggle every day with waking up and trying to remember that I have things to be grateful for. That’s why there are so many pictures on here. The pictures are for me, to remind me of the things in my life that are good and wonderful and special Not to mention cute and fuzzy. Even the darker pictures on here are meant to show the beauty that lies within everything,  yes, even dead bugs.

But lately, with the holidays, I have been having a harder time seeing the bright side of things. The Man tells me that while he enjoys my writing, he does not enjoy the rants like this one.

I feel I need to clarify that I did write that post in a response to an article I came across that I didn’t link to because I did not want to give it traffic, it was that bad, and now I can’t find it.

Anyway, Ranting Pando comes off as somewhat butter and hate filled sometimes. I’m aware of it. I have been feeling angry at the world lately and its leaking out into other things. I’m sorry. Attitude is everything, and I’m working on changing mine.

Speaking of gratitude, did I mention I won a Wii and Wii fit? I did?  I still can’t believe it. This day has been full of win. I also got free chocolate in the mail. Best. Day. Ever .


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I’m not dead.

Yet, anyway.  Ive recently moved here from Blogger, just for a  change of scenery.

Quick updates-

The bad-

I have had a grand total of 6 anesthesia involving procedures in the last year.  And, no, they still don’t know whats wrong, but they’ve given me several new problems to deal with.  I’m not going to be going into detail on much of it, because, frankly, I’m sick to death of it. Almost literally.

I still don’t have any answers regarding the Situation..  My last contact with anyone was a blackmail attempt on his part. My insides are rotting away from the repressing I am having to do to deal with all of this.

The good-

The kid wants to play soccer, and so she shall. She starts in the fall, right when she starts school. I’m a fucking soccer mom now. Jesus.

I get to plan her fifth birthday.

We got another dog. The first one was lonely.

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