Monthly Archives: October 2008
I was sitting in a doctors office today. Filled with people, I sat alone yet not, thoughts wandering in and out. One elderly man sat with a rounded belly as though extremely pregnant, skin peeling off one arm. He was dozing in and out of consciousness, or sleep, I don’t know. But, he’d startle awake, and look at me and smile, and make an innocuous comment, every so often. Another man came in, perhaps even a boy, obviously mentally handicapped. He sat next to me, leaning close to smell my hair, as I willed myself not to recoil out of instinct. The man who had come with him, finished at the counter, sharply barked at him to come sit nearby, and he left my side. A while later an older woman came in and sat with them. I watched as she touched his cheek affectionately. Smiled at him with such love.
Part of me sees the beauty in these people, in all people, that is so ignored in our culture. I want to capture it somehow and show you. I want to keep it in a box.
And part of me feels like an asshole.
So, driving through my neighborhood has really been starting to depress the shit out of me. The overabundance of the McCain/Palin signs and the “Just say no to gay marriage” crap is really making me lose my faith in humanity. People have a right to disagree, and people even have a right to like and respect McCain. (But.. how anyone can think Palin is a good idea? Have you all had lobotomies?) I just don’t see how anyone living in this fucking reality can think that another Bush-ish regime is going to be good for us. And all you assholes who still think Bush is the greatest thing since sliced bread, seriously?
Now, I realize that I live in the south. And that I live in a rather rural area of the south. So, I keep hoping people in other places are more.. educated. And.. driving to an appointment today i had a chance to go through a neighborhood I don’t pass by much. A relatively upscale place, where people have money. And I was gratified to see so many Obama signs and even a few ” Let gay’s marry” signs. Maybe the country isn’t fucked after all.
Breaking news: I’m going out.. like an adult.. to a concert. I can not fucking wait. You people have no idea.. actually *I* have no idea how long it has been that I have gone to see a concert. Not counting dancing kids characters and fair bands, of course. And, to make it oh, so much better, It’s my favorite band. Really, the only band I like enough to go see right now. 6 more hours…